Friday, June 29, 2012

No name!

Everything eventually ends. I don't know why it has to. But, they say it's the law of the universe. That I can agree. Apparently, everyone knew about this. I was the late pick-up! :P However, I just had one question. If you know everything is eventually going to end, why are you so keen to end it yourself? If I ask this, I'm being impractical. Any the ways, this post is not about being practical and all. But, it's about ending something. Keep reading.

So, I started this blog back in Feb 2008. I didn't start it because I had anything to say to anyone. It was just an instinct. I helped my dad with a write-up and he loved it. Of all the things I could have done (I had hell a lot of assignments to write), I went online and created a space on blog spot. It's just the disadvantage of giving away free blog accounts. Anyways, I was filling out the necessary forms and when I came to point of the title, I paused. What to name the blog? After two hours, I typed in CHIJU SPEAKS. No, it didn't take me two hours to come up with the name. I got a call when I paused. I was talking on the phone for the next two hours. When I came back to my system, I saw the cursor blinking on the text box and I named my blog instantly.

Naming it was simple because, everyone knows how much Chiju Speaks. Some people hate it when I keep talking. Don't worry about the rest, I don't talk to them! :P The irony is that the people I love to talk to are the ones who hate it when I keep talking. :P My dad for example. I can't imagine how many times he has explicitly told me, "Konja neram peshama iru" (Except for the tam bram slang, that just means - "Shut your mouth for sometime"). But, I can just sit and keep chatting with him for hours. He's such a great listener. I wouldn't blame anyone though. So, if you have ever felt bad that you cut me out when I was in a flow of talking, don't worry. I totally forgive you. Trust me, even I can't take it when someone talks like me. :)

I can't believe this space has been there for 4 years. Maybe it doesn't sound that long because I remember writing every single post. If I just focus away from the bad posts, I'm sure I have brought a smile on many people's faces by writing here. That's the biggest complement to this space and myself.

I would like to thank all the people who kept me going in this front.
Swathi - My first inspiration to writing anything. If you commented on a post, I would know I have written a good one.
Vibushan & Vivek - To have introduced the word blogging to me. When you were active bloggers, I have shared your blog links to people more than mine. :)
Navneeth - Whenever we used to have a chat, I used to get an idea to write here. I hope one day what you dreamed about my writing comes true! :P
Aneesh & VJ - To have commented in almost every post. You guys kept this space going for a long time.
Swetha - To have always been frank and honest about telling me what exactly you felt about whatever Chiju spoke.

And to the very few readers who used to remind me about writing here once in a while. Thanks.

Chiju Speaks will shut down at 7:15 PM on July 2nd 2012. 

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

How to name it

Sometimes you want things. Sometimes you want them so badly. Sometimes you just know you want them but you are nowhere near to getting them. Most often than not, you end up not getting it. "Oh! What's with the pessimism Chiju?" Yeah, I heard that, but keep reading. Sometimes you know you want the thing and you know you may not get it, but you put your heart and soul in to it. You work on it a little bit everyday. But, no one notices. No one understands you, what you are doing and why you are doing it all the time, until, one fine day. You make it there.

There is a phrase in Tamil that says "vaayala vada sudaradhu". A colleague calls it (for "security" reasons of course) "Mouth Vada Frying (MVF)", in butler English. People brag all the time about all that they can do. I do that big time. But, when you see them get in to the field, you'll realize that it's just about all the theory and not one bit of application. Yes. I'm guilty of that most of the time. But, once I've committed something (except if it's about me pulling down) to someone, I think I've met the expectations. Anyways, this is not about me. So, let's leave that there.

If you ask me about it, sample out people randomly off the street and I'd say 17/20 are experts in MVF. Most of them, not by choice. As my gtalk status used to read, the reality bitch sucks (TRBS). We just don't get to keep our word. So, what about the other 3? How do they achieve what they want? How do they do it so seamlessly? It's funny to think that we live in the same bitchy world as them.

In this world that's full of so many successful people, you can never go short on inspirations. Sometimes, just talking about your past to someone will make you realize that what you've pulled in the past is more than what you think of yourself right now. Throw "Past is Past" at my face and I'll fling it right back at you with it's not about living in the past, but, living out of it.

To make it there needs something extra. Focus! If the focus is on the little piece of the puzzle, you are likely to lose interest soon. But, if it's all about the big picture, someday or the other, all the pieces will fall in to place. And to say that, I may not have achieved anything, but, I've seen people who have. People who I had all my life, people who are living so close to me that I wonder why I never thought I should learn something from them.

People who never reacted to that all that negative criticism, when all I did was achieve those small points, impressing people that didn't matter and creating an impression about things that didn't matter. In short, I never really was sure about the big picture. The past few months have been very humbling and it's literally like being reborn. I have learnt to be a lot more patient, keep to myself and most important of all - I now know that there is a big picture.

In short, it's all about the focus. If you think you are doing the right thing by starting with chiseling the big mountain, keep doing it. That's advise for myself. Take it if you feel it applies to you.

It's so refreshing to have written one full post here after 6 months. See ya folks. :)